Ran again yesterday. 7 days in a row.
I was thinking as I ran how “ordinary” my running is. I don’t mean that in a negative way, but I think I am feeling some rebound from training for a marathon.
I wondered as I trained, how I would feel after it was all over. Would I have a difficult time adjusting to the fact I wasn’t training anymore, or would I be relieved. I was happy to find out that after the marathon was all over, I was satisfied. I didn’t feel upset or unfocused. I was just living in the fact that I had completed my goal.
Now, almost 4 week later, I think I did have some issues that came up over the past few weeks. Even as I ran yesterday, I felt a bit “off” thinking that it is all over. My running right now is ordinary running. Nothing special. Nothing to train for. Nothing but me and the road and my shoes.
I don’t mean that I am not planning some races. We have a 10K in a month and TJ just talked to me about running a few 5K’s. In February we have the Mercedes Half Marathon and in March the Shamrock Marathon.
Right now though, I am enjoying just running and not really training. I am enjoying pushing it a bit. I am enjoying the cooler weather (though the heat index yesterday was 90). I really am enjoying the no pressure running that I am doing. But deep inside there is a little sadness. There is a little loss. Training for a marathon was hard, especially in the summer. It was grueling and tiring. I am surprised though how much of my identity was tied up in that training. Even now it seems hard to not have that goal to reach out to. It seems hard to not be in a place of, “Can I actually do this?”
So, I am working on enjoying my ordinary running.
Sometimes life is ordinary. There is nothing to reach out for. It is work, home, run, eat and sleep.
If we don’t enjoy the moments, even in the ordinary times, we will never appreciate the marathon of life.
Hmmm. Now I feel better. I’m glad I had a chance to write through this thought process.
On to my ordinary life. I’m glad I am alive, can eat, can run and can sleep in a bed and have a wonderful family.
Ordinary is good.