As I ran yesterday, I thought about dreams.
Not dreams as in sleep, but dreams as in aspirations, desires, goals that seem beyond reach, but something you want to attain with a desire that is beyond normal desire or hope.
Dreams are an important part of life. Some dreams never come to pass. They sit in front of us an become a frustration, depression or just make us angry.
I realized yesterday that I have had many dreams I wanted to attain in life and many of them I have actually achieved. Most were within my ability to achieve if I persevered beyond normal effort. As I ran, realized that each major phase of my life has had a dream just outside my reach that I had to really work for in order to see it come to fruition. Many times those dreams took perseverance beyond my own ability to achieve.
I am being purposefully vague here as I don’t need to go into all those dreams. But my thoughts went on to the fact that so many people deal with anger and depression because they don’t get to fulfill their dreams, at least in the timing that they have chosen to see them fulfilled. Without a dream, or as the Bible says, a vision, we will perish. Hope is essential in life. The American Dream has kept people pursuing their lives vocation for generations. A hope for a good life and an even better life for their children. I think a lot of Americans have given up on achieving their Dream.
My current dream or hope or goal is to qualify and maybe one day run in the Boston Marathon. Back before last year’s race (and tragedy) TJ would talk to me about us qualifying together. Then, last March I made that my goal. I hadn’t even run my first marathon yet, but my new goal would be to qualify for Boston… Then I ran my first marathon in September and that dream seemed to be pushed beyond achievement. I ended up hurting myself after the marathon and it took months to get back to a semi normal running routine.
I still have that as my goal, my dream. It keeps me going home each day and heading out to run in good or bad weather. It helps me get past heel spurs and hip pain. It makes me run up mountains in order to build my endurance and run down mountains to build my strength.
It is my dream.
I could give up on my dream. It is going on 2 years since I began running and a year since I made that decision to qualify for Boston. That is a long time. I am getting close to 2,500 miles run, mostly in my neighborhood. It seems like a dream that is out of reach. But that is exactly what makes it a dream. That is what gives me hope. The thought of the day I achieve another dream and overcome almost impossible odds to do just that… That is what makes life fun.
So my run ended yesterday much quicker than most. Not because I ended it early, but because I had so distracted myself from running by dreaming about dreaming.
Keep dreaming. If it were easy, it wouldn’t be a dream.