I was 10.25 miles into my long run. Frankly I was surprised I made it that far, but I needed to make another 7-8 miles. There was a lot going against me.
First, I am still not over my sinus infection. It is better, but not gone and it hit me hard Saturday night and I woke up Sunday feeling tired and a little sick.
Then there is the 5K I ran just 24 hours before. I ran as hard as I could and I have never been able to run the day after a 5K because my body is way too sore.
Finally had I just drank water, had some Cliff Block Chews and I ran my tenth mile way too fast. My thoughts were, “maybe I should call it a day”. “I still have 5 weeks before my marathon”. ” Who would criticize me for running 10 miles after such a busy weekend”.
Then my phone rang… It was my work… I had to help someone with an IT issue. I stopped running. I talked on the phone for 10 minutes. In the mean time, TJ ran past me on his run and another runner ran past. I finished the call. I stood there thinking, “What do I do?” I was tired and hot. It was getting close to 80 degrees and 90% humidity. I was soaked.
One more mile, I decided. I’ll run one more mile and see how I feel. I’ll slow down a bit, try to run relaxed, not push. After all, 11 miles is better than 10.
I finished that one mile and went for another. I finished that and then another. By the time I finished, I made a distance PR of 17 miles. 2 miles farther than I have ever run. I also managed to keep an average pace of 9:15/mile. I am so glad I didn’t give into that voice.
I hate that voice. It talks to me on all my long runs and hard workouts. It is constantly telling me to give in. Give up. There is always tomorrow. You are tired. You are hot. Today is just a bad day.
I have decided that that voice is not my friend. Yes I have to be wise and if I get hurt, I’ll know I am hurt. But there is no way for me to run a marathon in 5 weeks if I let that voice be my friend any longer.
So I am going to work my hardest to ignore this voice and move forward. My goal is to run this race and do my best. However if I bring this voice along with me, I will just live in fear the whole race. My goal for the next 5 weeks is to silence this voice and move forward confidently and wisely and make the right choices based on fact and not on “a voice”.
Today is my off day. I have a trip to the chiropractor this afternoon and then I hope I can rest for the evening. It was a great weekend for running and I feel much better than I did about my upcoming marathon.
Thank you all for your comments and encouragement! I am so thankful I started this blog!!!